Tuesday, February 13, 2007
So its 07' now. Whats new in life? I feel like alot has happened, but I have ZERO to say. Maybe because no ones listening, or reading. Could be. I guess I don't know where to start really.
New job. New wants. New outlooks. New friends. New life, basically.
I work in Manhattan now. Its great. I get to be in the middle of all the action, whilst making money. Score, right? Somewhat. It has its downfalls. 4 hour roundtrip commute, daily. $$$ gone from travel. Long days and nights. Don't get to see my friends as often, or be accessible as I used to be. Getting homesick. But its all for the greater good, for myself. Right? Yes. Its a give and take relationship with my job. The people I work with are great, and I don't feel I need to put on an "act" around them, which is great. I hate being "at work Leah". I like to be me, and be sarcastic and goof off, while still getting everything we need done, done. And I feel I can do that here. Thats what keeps me around over all else. And having money in my bank account aint bad either, man.
What I want out of this year is some accomplishment, and some growth. I want to be able to take care of myself. Which I basically do now, but to really do it on my own. Be my own person, and grow up in a sense. I want to be at peace with things. I want to be able to shut off my mind, and enjoy the things around me. Instead of worrying about what the future will hold, or if there will be a future to look forward to. I would love to travel, and take pictures of all the things I find interesting, make music that I like, and be able to express my creative side a bit more. I want to be more motivated to do these things. I want alot of things to come out of this year, but over all else I want to be at peace with myself. I want to be happy. Not that im this miserable lump, but just happiness in the things I do and the people around me. Looking forward to things is what keeps people going, and I want things to look forward to.
Some new outlooks I have would be the following. You gotta do what makes YOU happy. Nothing too spectacular or mind blowing, but its true. And I want to live by that. It may sound selfish, but its your life to live and you can't always live for everyone but yourself. You'll miss out. I just feel that people should do what they want, and if its something that they long for then they should just go for it. If you are longing to be a KKK member, JUST DO IT. Kidding. Relax. Ive also come to the conclusion that sometimes when youre "down" not everyone will have the right thing to say. You can't count on people to make you feel better, you gotta make yourself feel better. Everyone goes through the "Ups" and the "Downs" thats part of what makes us human beings. Ive also learned that Im either really concerned with things, or I dont care at all. Its like 2 extremes. Sometimes Ill feel that I need to know everything or figure out certain things, and then other times I just dont care. Im numb to it. I wish I could change that. A happy medium. I want to be aware and concerned about anything thats important in life, and to be numb to the things that are useless and just break me down. Right now its the opposite, and that must change. Lately I've felt like I have no time for bullshit. For some reason I feel I don't have alot of time on this earth and I don't want to spend it in a negative way. Feeling like I don't have alot of time (for a reason unknown to me) makes certain things I do or say come off the wrong way. It makes me impatient. Not good. I know Im not perfect, and I'd never claim to be. But Im trying to better myself, like everyone should. I'm a pretty cool chick once you get to know me. But Im human too.
Ive met some really cool people over the past few years, and I hope to know most if not all of them for a long long time. I hate to name people, because Ive done it in the past and it always seems like I never hear from them again after I tell everyone how great they are. So Ill leave it at that. I feel my life is somewhat a new, but still the same. I feel like I've been through alot of things before 07' and even in 07'. Things have broken me down, but they helped me learn and made me stronger in a sense.
So Thank You, life.
~Leah
New job. New wants. New outlooks. New friends. New life, basically.
I work in Manhattan now. Its great. I get to be in the middle of all the action, whilst making money. Score, right? Somewhat. It has its downfalls. 4 hour roundtrip commute, daily. $$$ gone from travel. Long days and nights. Don't get to see my friends as often, or be accessible as I used to be. Getting homesick. But its all for the greater good, for myself. Right? Yes. Its a give and take relationship with my job. The people I work with are great, and I don't feel I need to put on an "act" around them, which is great. I hate being "at work Leah". I like to be me, and be sarcastic and goof off, while still getting everything we need done, done. And I feel I can do that here. Thats what keeps me around over all else. And having money in my bank account aint bad either, man.
What I want out of this year is some accomplishment, and some growth. I want to be able to take care of myself. Which I basically do now, but to really do it on my own. Be my own person, and grow up in a sense. I want to be at peace with things. I want to be able to shut off my mind, and enjoy the things around me. Instead of worrying about what the future will hold, or if there will be a future to look forward to. I would love to travel, and take pictures of all the things I find interesting, make music that I like, and be able to express my creative side a bit more. I want to be more motivated to do these things. I want alot of things to come out of this year, but over all else I want to be at peace with myself. I want to be happy. Not that im this miserable lump, but just happiness in the things I do and the people around me. Looking forward to things is what keeps people going, and I want things to look forward to.
Some new outlooks I have would be the following. You gotta do what makes YOU happy. Nothing too spectacular or mind blowing, but its true. And I want to live by that. It may sound selfish, but its your life to live and you can't always live for everyone but yourself. You'll miss out. I just feel that people should do what they want, and if its something that they long for then they should just go for it. If you are longing to be a KKK member, JUST DO IT. Kidding. Relax. Ive also come to the conclusion that sometimes when youre "down" not everyone will have the right thing to say. You can't count on people to make you feel better, you gotta make yourself feel better. Everyone goes through the "Ups" and the "Downs" thats part of what makes us human beings. Ive also learned that Im either really concerned with things, or I dont care at all. Its like 2 extremes. Sometimes Ill feel that I need to know everything or figure out certain things, and then other times I just dont care. Im numb to it. I wish I could change that. A happy medium. I want to be aware and concerned about anything thats important in life, and to be numb to the things that are useless and just break me down. Right now its the opposite, and that must change. Lately I've felt like I have no time for bullshit. For some reason I feel I don't have alot of time on this earth and I don't want to spend it in a negative way. Feeling like I don't have alot of time (for a reason unknown to me) makes certain things I do or say come off the wrong way. It makes me impatient. Not good. I know Im not perfect, and I'd never claim to be. But Im trying to better myself, like everyone should. I'm a pretty cool chick once you get to know me. But Im human too.
Ive met some really cool people over the past few years, and I hope to know most if not all of them for a long long time. I hate to name people, because Ive done it in the past and it always seems like I never hear from them again after I tell everyone how great they are. So Ill leave it at that. I feel my life is somewhat a new, but still the same. I feel like I've been through alot of things before 07' and even in 07'. Things have broken me down, but they helped me learn and made me stronger in a sense.
So Thank You, life.
~Leah
Labels: New Changes, New Year
